Disclaimer: This post is not meant to hurt or offend anyone, I am not judging anyone who did or did not Breast feed these are just my feelings. With that being said lets get on to the post.
I have been forced due to a medical issue to stop nursing Ben. It is very hard for me, I know it is necessary but I don't want to. I feel like he's getting the short end of the stick. I stopped nursing the big kids at 12 months so it's only 3 weeks less, but with them it was my choice, and with Ben I feel like I'm being forced to stop like I don't have a choice and I am like most people don't like being told what to do. Breast milk is what's best for my baby and I want to continue to nurse him. His Dr. did make me feel a little better, she said that since I have been nursing him for 11 months he's gotten all the benefit he can stopping 3 weeks early isn't going to hurt him. I also think that this is so hard for me because Ben is our last Baby, so I'm never going to have a baby to nurse again which is also really hard for me. So that was the sad part now on to the inept. So on Monday I realize I am all out of Breast Milk in the freezer and I don't have any formula so I have no way to feed my poor baby. So I had to barrow formula from my neighbor (thanks Renee). So that wasn't bad enough I then had to get her to teach me how to use the formula because I had no idea how much formula to use. I felt like the biggest dork. Mother of 3 and I don't even know how to make a bottle for my baby. So this has been a pretty sucky week all this has been going on and my poor Ben has been sick he has the yucky head cold, he is starting to feel better and i think he has gotten use to the formula. OK I'm done complaining and being a big cry baby. and whining. I know in the scheme of things it's really not going to matter, and Ben's going to be just fine.