Thursday, November 13, 2008

Sad & inept

Disclaimer: This post is not meant to hurt or offend anyone, I am not judging anyone who did or did not Breast feed these are just my feelings. With that being said lets get on to the post.

I have been forced due to a medical issue to stop nursing Ben. It is very hard for me, I know it is necessary but I don't want to. I feel like he's getting the short end of the stick. I stopped nursing the big kids at 12 months so it's only 3 weeks less, but with them it was my choice, and with Ben I feel like I'm being forced to stop like I don't have a choice and I am like most people don't like being told what to do. Breast milk is what's best for my baby and I want to continue to nurse him. His Dr. did make me feel a little better, she said that since I have been nursing him for 11 months he's gotten all the benefit he can stopping 3 weeks early isn't going to hurt him. I also think that this is so hard for me because Ben is our last Baby, so I'm never going to have a baby to nurse again which is also really hard for me. So that was the sad part now on to the inept. So on Monday I realize I am all out of Breast Milk in the freezer and I don't have any formula so I have no way to feed my poor baby. So I had to barrow formula from my neighbor (thanks Renee). So that wasn't bad enough I then had to get her to teach me how to use the formula because I had no idea how much formula to use. I felt like the biggest dork. Mother of 3 and I don't even know how to make a bottle for my baby. So this has been a pretty sucky week all this has been going on and my poor Ben has been sick he has the yucky head cold, he is starting to feel better and i think he has gotten use to the formula. OK I'm done complaining and being a big cry baby. and whining. I know in the scheme of things it's really not going to matter, and Ben's going to be just fine.

4 comments:

Carrie said...

I TOTALLY know how you feel! I don't know if I told you, but I had to start supplementing Lydia at 4 months and am struggling to keep breastfeeding going right now. I'm so sorry you have to put up with that in the home stretch. They're right, he will be fine, and hopefully you will too. I feel for you.

Morris family said...

oh that sucks im sorry!! but i do totally know how you feel!! with liah they made me stop because i was pregnant with sammy!! but she was only 6 months old. well look on the bright side, you will only have to buy formula for a lil bit:)

CC said...

You have nothing to feel bad about! All of my children preferred breast milk for two years! I'm glad that I was able to do that with each of them, but for me, the most frustrating thing to deal with were the other moms that only formula fed or stopped way before six months. Theire comments, though thought to be a joke or just an observation, hurt a lot and made me feel like I was a lazy mom, not wanting to get a job fast enough to help my husband so we can earn a little more money. As for feeling inept, I was that way with the pumps, I just couldn't work those battery-powered ones, I didn't like to hear any endorsements about them!

Jen said...

That's tough. I always struggle when I stop breastfeeding whether by my choice or not. It's good bonding time.

But, since you don't have a choice, you can focus on the good parts about it. You get your body back! That's always nice.